My Personal Journey
As I peeled away the layers, I began seeing with clearer perspective the direction I needed to go. I looked at my relationship, my friendships, my career, my recreational time—everything! I asked myself the hard questions which boiled down to one thing: Was I getting what I needed and if not, what did I need to do to get my needs met? I began to make the changes I craved. Some of them were scary and painful decisions but I know they were the right ones for me. Stillness and self-inquiry had become my internal compass.
This happened to me around the age of 37. I felt like a stranger in my own life. We still entertained, had a close circle of friends, enjoyed barbeques, celebrated birthdays, practiced religion—from the outside it all would have seemed picture perfect. On the inside, I had a deep yearning for something more. The more I ignored it and pressed on, the less connected I felt. Somewhere along the way I lost myself. This was when I learned to tap into my soft inner voice by becoming still and quietening my mind from the busyness that surrounded me. I began to seek out what made me the happiest and realized my path on this earth is greater than I could have imagined. I was what I was searching for.